Violence is not the answer

This was written a couple of hours ago while I was in my room:

So I'm kinda a jerk sister. Here's why:
At a restaurant, my sister Ciara was messing with the napkins that had beer ads on them. And so I was like, "Why are you even looking at beer ads? Seriously?" in a rather snobby tone. So she went up and literally got into my face like she always does, and she knows I hate it. I snapped and physically pushed her face away, and got told off by my parents. And I totally brought it on myself.

In one of my favorite books, The Compound, the main character is kinda cold, detached, and a jerk to his siblings. Sometimes I wonder if I'm the same way.

So now I have to pretty much not touch the computer for a few hours. At least this will give me ample time to do those drawings for my friends I was gonna do.

I wonder if Ciara still wants a mini-couch like mine for her room. She does seem to have calmed down - she said thank you when I tossed her the toy she was looking for - but she isn't trying to mimic the main character of the movie we just watched, like she was before dinner. And I just think: If I had been sitting on the other side of the table, none of this would've happened.

Mom said that instead of playing on the comp., I would have to play/hang with Ciara. But she made it clear that she didn't want to be with me. Fine with me, but I'm pretty much consigned to my room alone.

Well, I don't really want to stay in my room, and I suppose I don't really have to, but it's the place with assured solitude, so...

When the song that's playing started, I had the urge to go up and change it. This happens a lot when I'm listening to my iPod on shuffle. One side of me says, "Why leave it on shuffle when there's only a few songs you actually want to hear? Don't change the song. If you didn't like the song, why'd you buy it?" The other side of me says, "My music is one of the only things in my life that I alone control." Sometimes the first side of me wins over and I listen to the song. Sometimes the second side wins and I skip a bunch of songs. Right now, the first side of me won.

I wonder if I am truly sorry about pushing my sister away. Now, if I had the chance to redo that five minutes, I wouldn't physically push her face out of mine again. It was the wrong thing to do and if I hadn't done it, I would be sitting at the computer now. But if there were no barriers, if I knew I wouldn't be punished, would I still have done it?

I don't want to know the answer.

So why do I ask the question?

Hilarious Foward

Today I recieved this hilarious email foward. Seriously. Effin hilarious. Although I don't think about romance that much. And I'm not a werewolf. I hope. xD

"This is for all you song lovers out there. It's a combination of "Get to know your friends" and chance. Here are the instructions for Part One:

1)Press "Forward" and delete the answers.
2)Put your MP3 (or iPod) on Shuffle.
3)Write down the title of each song that comes up as the answer of the 20 questions (no matter what it is).
4)Have fun!

#1. What do you think of yourself?
Barking at the Moon by Jenny Lewis (soundtrack of Bolt)

So I'm a werewolf?

#2. What do others think of you?
The Way I Are, Timbaland

Um, yes, I are. o-o

#3. What do you like about your life?
SOS by Rihanna

Apparently I'm calling for help...

#4. What do you hate about your life?
Bullet the Blue Sky by Marcus Satellite

And I always liked the blue sky...

#5. What do you wish you could become?
In the Eye by Suzanne Vega

An eye. How pleasant.

#6. What do you say when someone asks, "Is this okay?"
Paparazzi by Lady Gaga

So anyone who asks me "is this okay?" is paparazzi...

#7. What do you think of your friends?
One, Two Step by Ciara

Now what's that supposed to mean? They're good dancers?

#8. What kind of person do you crush on?
Untouched by The Veronicas

Uh...pure and innocent? :P

#9. What do you think is the best way to live life?
Everytime We Touch by Cascada

Err... lots of romance? o_O

#10. What do you think about most often?
Live Your Life by T.I. (feat. Rihanna)

I'm surprised I didn't get this for the last question xD

Apparently I think about life.

#11. Where do you do you want to be?
Break The Ice by Britney Spears

Great. Antartica.

#12. What is 1+1?
Love Lockdown by Kayne West

I appear to think about romance a lot. o_o

#13. What is unlucky for you?
Wire by Marcus Satellite

Well, at least that made /sense/. Wire is unlucky for me.

#14. What do your friends think of you?
Complicated by Avril Lavigne

I'm complicated. Okay.

#15. If you were in a desert all alone, what would you do?
Miracle by Cascada

I would do a miracle. Great. I don't believe in miracles.

#16. What do you do on rainy days?
Rehab by Rihanna

.-. My iPod lies, I swear!


#17. What is your hobby?
Cry For You by September

I hardly ever cry >8(

#18. What do you always dance to?
Institution Green by Suzanne Vega

It's not really a dance-y song...

#19. What is your biggest fear?
I Love by Marcus Satellite

So I think the best way to live life is romance, 1+1 equals more romance, and yet I'm scared of love. Wtf?

#20. What will happen in the future?
My Life Would Suck Without You by Kelly Clarkson

Now what the bleep is THAT supposed to mean?!


That is it! I hope your had fun! But why keep the fun all to yourself? Forward this to your friends (enculding the one that sent it to you) so they can have fun too!

NOW GO SIT IN THE CORNER!!!!!!"