Not quite worth my time.

So, I may have not said that I'm in a 9 guild on Neopets. (Yeah, I still play Neopets. I don't care.) It's rather slow; the two main admin, 7 and 9 (we call each other by the numbers we roleplay), don't get on much, and 3 is kinda illiterate. There are only a few members, and roleplay is quite slow, but I'm still fine with it. I'm okay with a slow guild. Plus, two of the members, 0 and 27, are two of my best friends in real life (notably 0.)

Now, 27 has been in many guilds in her time on Neopets, and she's created almost as many guilds as she's actually been in. Many of these guilds she's created she's pressured me to join (on my side, usually) and I do, and we roleplay, or chat, or whatever, for a week or two, and then she declares that it's dying and she makes a new guild. Now, I can understand the search for the perfect guild. I've only found three which I hoped would last forever, and they all died. D; But that's beside the point.

The only thing is that 27 left today. Here's the conversation that happened:

27: I am thinking about leaving, guys.
Me: Whaaat? ;-;
27: Roleplay hasn`t been that good, there`s no web, barely any members... not quite worth my time...

"Not quite worth my time."

As far as I know, no guild (except perhaps that one Redwall guild) was worth her time. None of her guilds were worth my time. This makes me angry. Maybe it shouldn't. I don't think it should, actually. But it does. There has never been a guild that we have been together that either of us was satisfied with.

Hell, she was the one who invited me and 0 to this guild!

I considered making excuses for our guild, or even confronting her and saying all the stuff I'm saying now. But all I said was, "I.. I'm sorry to hear that."

And she replied, "I know. Maybe I should look for a themeless.. Anyways, good luck with getting members." Then she left.

I wish I told her all the things I'm thinking. No, I don't. That would be bad; I don't want our friendship to break.

I've always been afraid of broken friendships, I think. Like that one day in Language Arts.. but that is another story, one I'm more afraid of posting on the Internet, in the case the friend it concerns finds it.

Heck, 27 might find this, especially if she looks through my tweets and decides to visit my blog. But I don't think she reads my blog, so I guess it's okay. Even so, I'm not tweeting about this.